I take you into my mouth, Reinaldo Arenas, mouth your praises: honeysuckle, night-blooming-jasmine, bougainvillea     te invoco     sweet sickly vine that chokes off any stem it clings to     moonstroked blossom whose scent burns off come dawn     riotous purple-prosed pistil and stamen     branch     all thorned up.

            We banter down boulevards of books. “Before night falls,” you say, “I’ll strip you bare. Tu piel una página para leer. Tu espalda la espina de un libro.” You stroke my back, Arenas, caress each word. The alleys and sidestreets of old Nueva York are mazed library stacks. We parade paragraphs about one another. Pen in hand we scribble penis in hand we diddle     we stroke each character on the page. I’ve absconded the past to transcribe you.

            Reinaldo, mi amigo, mi amor: this is the whore your words have made. You’re my skin, my spiritflesh, my holy ghost of the holy of holies of O. Que puta soy! I’m nearly as old as you were when you died, and I’ve had three soulmates in this life. The first died five minutes after I held him in my arms at Genesis Hospice. A spontaneously shattered wineglass by my nightstand     his T-cell count obliterated like crushed glass in the blood     a spear of light shot through his veins     then gone by dawn.  Is that how it was for you, Reinaldo? The grasp, clutch, choke of breath before morning?

            My third soulmate is an enigma: all boat-liquid-fuel-ignition one moment     leaking coolant the next     but something’s cracked in the engine between us     nothing works right anymore. Still, he’s the taste of laughter, the curl and fin of wakes thrust up from the stern: blue water, blue horizon, all shot through with diesel fumes. It’s beautiful it’s cobalt it’s clouded up and this is the murk I’m left with as my second soulmate stands beside me oblivious yet looking out onto the waves.

            Reinaldo, mi barquito, you are the tender bridled to the boat of mi lengua. My tongue, your words: we’re writing this in tandem.

 

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Marcos L. Martínez

Marcos L. Martínez

Marcos L. Martínez is a Macondo and Lambda Literary Fellow and co-founder of Stillhouse Press (www.StillhousePress.org). His work has appeared in Whiskey Island, Split This Rock, the HIV +/- Here and...